Right now I really feel the need of a change.But I'm patient.For now.You know,I really missed my ex colleagues,and I'm more than thankful and happy to see that even though I've been a little harsh with them and always brought them back to Earth for 4 years,now I see that they care about me,maybe more than they would have expected it.Many persons I didn't expected to,came to me.I'm glad that they finally realized that I do care about them,and that everything I've done wasn't in vain.That proves that whoever stands long enough around me and tries to know me a little bit,ends up caring about me,and knows I'm far more than beats the eye.
My aunt's mom died.I haven't spoken to her yet.I don't know what to say.Maybe it's only gonna hurt more.It's the first person that died when she shouldn't have.I'm very attached with this aunt.I can't call and say whatever and pretend to understand,because...I don't.And I don't want to make her suffer even more now.I'll wait a little while.She doesn't know I know.Man,this month sucked.Not a day without a bad news or more.But I think something is changed.I appreciate more what I have around me and near me.So true that only when you lose something you appreciate it more.Some don't know this yet.Maybe they should and as soon as possible.I even made a declaration to my sis today-hihi-well,I always say to her that we'll be together forever,not even death will tear us apart;no one will from now on.We've been apart long enough.Even though we piss each other off sometimes.
I want to do so many things,so,so many...but everything at the right time.