Today I'm feeling like it's the 80's. So, here's a classic: ”Scorpions - I'm loving you”...
”Time, it needs time
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.
Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday.
I will be there, I will be there.
Fight, babe, I'll fight
To win back your love again.
I will be there, I will be there.
Love, only love
Can break down the walls someday.
I will be there, I will be there.
If we'd go again
All the way from the start,
I would try to change
The things that killed our love.
Your pride has build a wall, so strong
That I can't get through.
Is there really no chance
To start once again?
I'm loving you.
Try, baby try
To trust in my love again.
I will be there, I will be there.
Love, your love
Just shouldn't be thrown away.
I will be there, I will be there.
Yes I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through.
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end.
I'm still loving you,
I need your love.
I'm still loving you.
Still loving you, baby...”

Until the moment I fall down on the ground, powerless and dead, I won’t stop! I was never a weak person, and I’m sure as hell ain’t gonna become one. My will is endless!

”- Abandon me...!... You understand, don’t you?... It’s useless!
- Abandon you? You say quite awful things... I will keep my promise every time needed. Even if you end up hating me, or whatever happens... I will silence the beast within you! At least I'm not giving up!
- There’s no way I could hate you...”

„Read to me from the book of love
Sing me to my sleep
Fill my dreams with lust
And I am but a fool for you
Angel of my heart...
Your life, so much sorrow
Let me take one moment of your pain
You have died a million times over
Who would comprehend the mystery of life's game
So come, let's share of life's treasures
We'll live a life of passion undisturbed by shame
What you require, I offer with pleasure
Let's fall laughing, tumbling in vermilion rain
Come into my life
My Prince of Shadows
My heart shall know of no other
Within your arms I feel strangely serene
All those lives you've seen rise, mature and die
Who else could say that they've seen the sights you've seen
The world shall show us such wonders
I'll cast my act into the Sea of Dreams
And so, my love, I give onto you...”

Conversation between I and Me.

I (subconscious): - You have to remember why you decided to do this. You can't go back every time you feel a little weaker.
Me (conscious): - But why things have to be so complicated?
I (subconscious): - It's just how it is and you have to deal with it.
Me (conscious): - But... I want to do that...
I (subconscious): - You can't.
Me (conscious): - But... What if it could change things?
I (subconscious): - No BUT.
Me (conscious): - What if everything is not how I think it is, and we could be happy?
I (subconscious): - It doesn't matter. Once you go forward, you can't go back every time just to end up making the same decision over and over again.
Me (conscious): - I want...
I (subconscious): - I don't care what you want. Get over it!
Me (conscious): - This ”what if...” is killing me.
I (subconscious): - It's killing everybody. It's an universal problem. You can't solve it though.
Me (conscious): - I have to try...
I (subconscious): - NO! You have tried too many times. It has no point.
Me (conscious): - What do I do when I'm on the verge of breaking down and I feel I can't resist anymore without doing what my heart is telling me to do?
I (subconscious): - There's nothing you can do. It's not that simple. The heart has no brain for a reason. That often falls into stupidity. You can only hope that it will go away. And remember the reasons why.
Me (conscious): - When did it get so complicated? I should be able to do what I feel I have to do, every time I want to do it. Why all this torture?
I (subconscious): - I don't have a reasonable answer to that. Not even Einstein had an answer to that. And the story has two people involved. So you see... it is unlikely that the two persons will syntonize. It doesn't all depend on you. If it does, then you should just reconsider the situation and realize why it's not well for you.
Me (conscious): - I know all that. And yet... I still have this burning desire to do it. Despite everything.
I (subconscious): - Well, NO! Don't do it! End of story.

And I could actually ”see” that I will end up doing it. As usual. When a fuckin' idea gets into my head I can't manage to get it out. It's amazing! Stubborn, idiot and dysfunctional brain! Or is it my soul that is dysfunctional?...

”Lipsește-mă de jurământ
Consumă-mi teama și atât
Cinstește-mi liniștea-n cuvânt
Și fi azi demonul meu blând...
Lipsește-mi noaptea de cuvânt
Transpiră-mi trupul și atât
Complică-mi îngerii-n desfrâu
Să-mi fii tu-n astă noapte sfânt...
Sorții-mi cântă între tine și pământ...” Dacă aș fi avut șansa, ar fi trebuit să te aleg pe tine sau pământul?... Coboară-mă în rai, demonul meu blând*...

*Bring me down to heaven, my gentle demon...
I could never do a translation of these lyrics that would capture all the beauty in them. I only translated the last phrase, and that's not even good enough...But I love them. I succumb these lyrics to you, my gentle demon, along with an enormous part of me...! I miss even the little that I once had.
Till next time, I would like to show you a sweet dream...