”Maybe the snow wanted to freeze my moment of suffering. But yet, I wanted to suffer, I wanted to hold her almost to suffocation, I wanted not to let her go, I wanted her to be all mine. With my whole existence and with absolute intensity, I want, I want, I want her!”

”An angel visited me and abandoned me burning in hell. No, hell would be easier.”

Quotes from my book I'm trying to continue, ”Desideratum”. Aimé has more than a half of me and my everyday experiences, even if it doesn't seem so. And he manages to say everything I can't, or has the same problem as me in saying what should be said. Emotions aren't our forte, especially when you need to express them. I guess I am trying to speak through him.
NB: Aimé, Lord DuBois, is my main character in the book.

”No matter how many deaths that I die, I will never forget...
No matter how many lies that I live, I will never regret...
Do you really want?
Do you really want me?
Do you really want me dead or alive to torture for my sins
Where is your God?”