Posted at 02:23 PM on November 24, 2008

Odi et amo. quare id faciam, fortasse requiris?
nescio, sed fieri sentio et excrucior.
(I hate and I love. Why do I do it, perchance you might ask?
I don't know, but I feel it happening to me and I'm burning up.)

I love this part:odi et amo.are we able to feel this opposite feelings at the same time?
i love that only an angel could be as unusual as you,i hate that you can't see that someone does love you...i love the sad look in your eyes,i hate that you can't see that i am also sad for you...i love to see my reflection in your eyes,i hate that you can't see that every gesture of yours makes my heart beat faster..maybe i will have a heart attack someday:))

i read today an old journal that i used to keep,and i got to the conclusion that i have never been that optimistically.actually the feelings that i found were pain,fear,i felt useless,angry...i should take the oscar at faking..i always tried to look happy,so that the others don't feel pity for me,i always tried to cheer everyone up,but i never managed to cheer myself up...


i think that we all play a part in this big scene,the world...but i just can't seem to realize what's mine...