...I love playing with my hair,soft and fragile,to feel that my hand is sinking into my curls...it calms me...
It's been a boring week but at the same time surprising--(DD-Decision;Daring)--
Whenever I go out with the girls or whatever,I only get out hoping it will be different.I'm always bored because the subject of discussion is always the same:boys,and all that is related to this.I get it once,twice,but always?!I asked them many times if they don't have another subject.The answer was:"If we don't talk about that,then about what?".Sadly,it's true.They can't find another subject,and if I will propose them another one,they will get back ton the old discussion,probably because they wouldn't know what to answer.Maybe they're denying the reality and the real problems.And they keep asking me why I don't go out more often.I honestly rather stay home.They don't get that.It's kinda weird and sad to see that.And the reason I get out,when I do,it's because I want to drink a good frappe or shake or I just wanna get out of the house,although I hate the smoke.So,I mostly use them.Now I got the lesson,I don't even bother asking them to change the subject,but I just watch the tv,or I think at something else.And I know they won't ask me something related to this,because I will just reject them.My private life is private.I wish some of them will keep their private life to their own too-it's despicable to talk about repellent details.It's also sad to hear what stupid conversation they have with their boyfriend.Sad indeed...
"…then I want to fall down with you to the very farthest depths…!!!"(VK 52)
Off to mom on 7th of August.