I just hate when all those memories come back to me.I can't deny them,even if I try to.They are a part of me forever,and they influenced all my present existence,my thinking.I provoked everything,many times instinctively.I didn't fought against.I just left myself go...What bugs me even more is that everyone seem to have the impression I'm some kind of innocent baby girl.Oh,how sweet!Grow up,man!I know and saw more than maybe either of you ever did.Fuck off and open your eyes!I'm no naive little child!Stop protecting me!
I'm passing through one of those moments when I would like to tell everything what's on my mind,one of the weak times,but I know I must restrain myself.I know I will pass over this soon,but now it's such a strong desire.It's like I begin to talk,I give some hints,but then I know I must abstain.Anyway I have the same impression as always that no one is really listening to what I'm saying.I don't mean exactly what it's coming out from my mouth.It's more than that.I sure hope this moments will pass quickly.Then again,even if I had any intention of talking,I don't think I could make myself understood even so,so...
You have no fuckin' idea of how much I understand you.Of how much I could have understood you from long ago.No fuckin'idea!
Man,I can't get more irritated by people "stealing" my ideas.If I say some bullshit,the monkey must say it after me in the near future.I mean wtf??!!Can't they understand that this individualizes me,not them.What they are doing is only acting like a cheap,fake copy.It's driving me insane.Sis said not to say anything ever before.Yeah,I thought about that many times,but it bores me as hell just to shut up.I learned to control some of my impulses of saying what really relates to me,and just joking,but even my jokes are constantly being "stolen".Give me a break,people.I'm not some fucking model for anyone,so stop it!Just stop it!
*If someone feels somehow offended of my language,then just know I DON'T CARE!Fuck off you too!!!(not really in the mood of listing all the swearing I know-it would take a while)
Current mood song: Evergrey-"Trilogy of the damned".