“Could you stand the idea of living everyday
being touched by someone as tainted as me…?”
The sun is now slowly slipping down as if it’s a circle boat disappearing into the flames of reality, making room for the stars to reappear again, and again…Again, this immortal image surprises me standing on the grass, almost lost in nothingness and in a silence disturbed only by the sound evaporating from all around me, like an Aura ready to wake the dead, rather than some angels. Still, this reality seems to be more a Utopia like ripped out from some stories. Maybe this is what seduces me to come back here every night…Or then again, maybe not. I can’t really decide if a lie or a truth pushes me to this place. The important thing is that here’s my magic unreal reality…Suddenly it begins pouring drop by drop…But this doesn’t make me to want to leave. It would be hard to tell what could take me away from here, especially now…Although someone crosses through my thoughts.
Nevertheless, I can’t remember how I got here. The last thing I recall is that I was standing in front of that door that was nearly closed forever, and that I couldn’t tell what has happened, that I was overwhelmed with a feeling of numbness.
I’m not that sure that this even happened, somewhere in the nearly past. Maybe it was a dream; maybe I never left here… I like that idea. It makes me revive.
I played all in my head so many times, that it feels unnatural and uncomfortable to still be afraid of how it will turn out. And, still, I think that fear never left me. Finally it overcame me. It didn’t happen as I thought it would. It never does.
I guess I should return. But I don’t know where. I can’t find a decent reason why should I. I don’t want to. I don’t think I will.
...
by me.

I started this some days ago.I thought a while of how I will begin it.I'm not sure it will still be like this,but I really want this start to mean something.Not necessarily for others,but mostly to me.Now that I see things differently.I thought I could create something as a support until I will live what I want to.I could use some silence though.I have a lot of things to think about.
This week was a complete boredom but I got some plenty rest:D.I guess it will be a good think for me.I should thank the government for making up a disease that even though I don't think it should mean a good thing for the majority of us,now I can only think about myself.Sorry about my selfishness.I know their purpose was to shrink the human race and make huge money from selling meds,taking advantage of the human desperation while facing death.They didn't get anything from me so I don't really care...
All I ask of you is to stick around...I promise I will...