I don't even know how the hell I let something like that cross my mind.Stupid!STUPID!I need to make some remedies to this part.Hell no,I promised to not do this to myself.Just stupid...Ah,I hate this feeling.Actually no,I hate every feeling.
I wonder how is it to walk through crowds and walk without direction or with just one direction,just moving.Not being conscious,not feeling or hearing anything,just like a robot.Life would be much easier,definitely.
But if I think about it I wouldn't really like to be like this and easier.I just say this now or every now and then,but who knows: maybe I like this "torment".Oh,that's a though word.But what other explanation is there?!And what will be the beauty,the satisfaction of every single small moment of happiness if everything will be just...grey?!
Just an amalgam of stupidities running through my mind these days.Or maybe just like always."Stupidities"?!Really?!These stupidities have a significant importance for me if I can't get pass them.
"Right or wrong?!There's always two sides to every story."