Yeah, I admit I sometimes take a sadistic pleasure in what others might consider painful, disgusting or fearful, but that doesn't mean that I enjoy this pain. I don't feel any pleasure in this type of suffering.

I hate receiving orders and I hate even more following them. I have always been a disobedient. An absolute brat. I like being in charge of things and manage by myself, by my own desires.

”Without you I'm nothing at all...”*
*Although I do not believe an individual should define himself by reporting himself/herself to the Others, but I rather believe in the individual's personal identity, the association between the I, between ME, as the Nothing when being without the other, You, is...absolute. There is nothing more absolute than the Nothing. So simple, and yet so meaningful...

NB: Man, those two albums of the 90's band, Lestat (that's how I discovered them in the first place:D), are in essence the best vampiric music ever! They're surreal. I can imagine some of them playing on the background in clubs like the one where Akasha and Jesse went to. I just can't believe I have not found them sooner. Another great discovery: Gary Numan - Jagged :x:x:x.

Till next time... I'll be 21 years! Old enough to get drunk and vote in every state in the world. ”Too bad” I don't do any of the above. Freakin' ”happy” b-day!