OMG!OMG!OMG!Boredom and monotony is going to kill me one day!For sure!I'm barely holding myself from pulling my hair out.Nowhere to go,nobody to talk to,to...fuck,I don't even know,just do something.It's simply driving me crazy!I think I can stand almost anything but this.I almost finished all the books already,I don't have patience to even listen music,and besides,it's not like you can listen to music all day without doing something else at the same time.Now,mom wants to sends us away tomorrow night,again,to meet with her boyfriend.God,just go to another fucking place.I would go if I had somewhere else to go to.And gladly!You won't even catch me around house if I had somewhere to go to,or at least know somoeone.Two more weeks!I'm going insane only when I think about it!Then 5 days it won't even be necesarry to go out of the house!Can someone imagine what this means?Death it's easier.Pain it's easier!Honestly!I wanna go home!I want and NEED plans,something to do.Anything!Even walk without a direction!And plus I'm tired standing all day long with old people;it's boring!!!I tried,I wanted to try,but I don't know what strategy to adopt anymore,and the language is an impediment.Where the fuck should I find someone younger to get out of the house,doesn't matter where?KILL ME!KILL ME!Someone give me a drug to like sleep for the next two weeks,or something.And next summer again?!!!Are you fucking kidding me??!!What are people around here doing?This is a more sad life than that one back home;at least there's a cinema,a coffee bar,I can watch a movie,play,do something and I know some people.What to speak with people you stay with 24/24 a day?Come on!!!I honestly need some occupation,or I'm gonna lose my mind,completely!I can't sleep more than this.I force myself into sleeping more!OK,OFFICIALLY I'M OUT OF MY MIND AND NEED A GUN,OR AN ANGEL,A MIRACLE!