I always like discovering new things about myself. It's kinda one of my favorite things to do. I like when I try out a new emotion, or a new variation of emotions, a new intensity, because it always tells me something new about myself.
That reminds me. I came across a quote these days that really felt very accurate to me. It would take too long for me to look for it again now but the idea is that no person is able to or should judge as long as the ”judgy” never lived in the ”judge's” body and mind. Ok, maybe I lost you here. Hear me out. So, every person has different degrees and rules of morality, rules that are unbreakable to one and perfectly breakable to another, different thoughts (it does occur that two or more individuals have mainly the same thought, but each of them think it differently), every individual has different genetics et cetera... mainly every individual is different in every single way... with this in mind how can someone else judge what I think is wrong or right, or judge my decisions and my acts if that specific individual never lived in my mind and in my life (in my decisive and childhood environment, in the end my ”formation” environment). It's actually pretty easy to understand even if more than 90 per cent of the human population doesn't take that in consideration.
Regarding my affirmation that we are all animals and nothing more than that... I always considered this to be true, even if I sometimes try to deceive myself to think otherwise. We are all ruled in our actions and decisions by our primal instincts that all animals possess: survival, sexual desire, feeding... The fact that we possess language (even though I truly believe this was an impartial and unfair gift that was given away carelessly) is nothing more but a defining trait that separates us from others species, but not what proves that we have humanity. Even a monkey, a dog or you name it, possess more humanity than us. Even a lion takes care until death of its family and siblings and gives away proves of compassion when he leaves the antelope loose or kills her to spare her of its pain.
 No one can say that in order to survive didn't do many unjust things or that has never acted like an animal. That's just denial. Even if later it becomes tortured by the huge Conscience. No one can tell for sure that the lion doesn't feel sorry to have killed the antelope. This subject and everything related to it can keep forever for me, because there are so many aspects of the problems.
You know, this place is actually more complicated that may seem. From when I was little and kept diaries in little notebooks with locks, I created a code of my own that allowed me to read far much more between the lines. What may seem a simple sentence to others may have so many significations to me (may be equal to a whole book). I could have so many references to people that are not at all obvious but only I can know. I honestly don't know why would someone would want to read what I write, cause in the end, even if I may refer to certain happenings or people, Here is only about me and what may seem important enough to me to write. It's just easier nowadays to keep an online diary than one written in those little notebooks, although if you ask me I prefer the old way. Those notebooks had something special of their own.
Here I am, writing way too much, well you know I like talking to you here, right?! See ya soon. Good night damneds, never give up.
NB: The ”you” I always refer to, as it may seem a dialog, is always me, or better yet my mind and conscience. I know what I want to say. It's not a real person. As I said, it's only me, myself and I here.
 Update: Here's the quote I was talking about: ”If men could only know each other, they would neither idolize nor hate.”(E.Hubbert) /This has as main cause the intense watching at all Criminal Minds seasons.What can I say?! I like a good case of murder. And Dr. Reid of course :D.